Why.......................

It seems it is true.. Problems dont come single.. but come in groups.. After the scandal that broke in my company.. I managed to get a project and come onsite.. and here is the diary of my time here.. I came down in the last week of Jan this year.. and a lil over a Month down the line in March this year... my client decides.. owing to the issues with your company.. we would like to de-risk our business and take some of your projects and team members and give it to some vendors.. All I can do is accept the decision and move on.. I wasnt amongst those selected. So after coming my first couple of months pass of in anxiety on whether I will survive after march and its surely is happening..Another month passes and my client decides to cut down the budget and my team size is down.. Another month of anxiety and tension.. Fortunately, I survive and now another quarter down.. Its July end and the same problems repeat and its my time to go.. Why.. Why.. Why has it got to be like this all the time..Now.. I have a visa which is being extended.. no project.. and not sure.. what happens when I get back to my office in India.. No Idea What lies ahead.. Why is that I have to face the test all the time.. and everytime.. Why cant things come a little easy for me.. Why has it got to be me who has to go thru the pains.. every time.. and this is not the first time.. It has been this way all the time.. What special deeds have I done in this life or past that I have been chosen all the time.. to go thru the hassles of uncertainity, tensions and struggle.. Why Me............ Can someone help me know why??????